Wednesday, March 28, 2012


Is He sufficient? Does He fulfill my every need? Was shedding His blood upon the cross enough? Tough questions right? We should ask ourselves these EVERY day. No matter what we are walking through. Are we giving Him the credit He deserves?

The grace, love and hope provided by Him IS enough. Always.

His presence is undeniable.

Wouldn't you think that Justin would be angry and hateful right now? Dont you think he should be lying in bed with a pillow over his face? Don't you wonder why we haven't thrown our hands up and decided to sleep in on Sunday mornings?

We find rest in Him. Peace. Calmness. Restoration.

In fact Justin is quite the opposite of angry. He has found the silver lining. He is more transparent, yes. Honest and real, yes. But that's what makes him so adorable. You will never walk into the Mac Shack and wonder what the 5 of us are thinking. We usually won't wait for you to ask either :) Some things are better left unsaid...but we just have a hard time with that. We get to live in this glass house right now. We have one chance to shout from the rooftops who our redeemer is. Just one life here on earth. The truth is the truth and that is that.

Justin's daily battles are something I will NEVER be able to fully understand. I really wish I could. My heart breaks each day when I watch his diseases progress with my eyes. If I can SEE it.. What does it FEEL like? Unfair is the understatement of the day. Justin is gracious with me and others for that matter. We are so ignorant to how he feels, and that doesn't bother him. sometimes I forget he is sick because he is so handsome. I think he really likes it when I do :) His identity is not sickness. He is a very hard worker, an amazing daddy, committed husband, super fun friend and devoted student. He doesn't just have to KNOW he is sick. He has to see it and feel and hear it day in and day out.

As each doctors appointment brings more and more heartache...we have to dig deeper into this faith. And as we dig deeper we find out that its not all about US. There are some who are suffering so much more. When we cry out for help we are shown deeper and harder trials, and we find a way to feel blessed. We look at our home and precious children and our friends and family and beds and dinner and jobs and we feel RICH. Rich with love from our king. We will not stop shouting from the rooftops.

You can't make us.

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