Monday, August 27, 2012

cross the line with me

I have been reflecting a lot lately on my prayer life. I feel like it may have gotten a little off course over the summer. I find time to pray daily and I find time to be in the word and be accountable with friends and mentors pretty much daily...but I just realized that somewhere in the fun of summer I lost the "umph" in my prayer that I need desperately. There is always an opportunity to draw nearer to the Lord during quiet time...a little red line into sincere quietness and seeking that sometimes I just dont cross. I am always given the opportunity to cross that line. Every moment of every day. He desires me and pursues me. He can find the time to draw near to me in every second of every day. How can I get so caught up in my life to not return that precious favor? Even when my life is submersed in ministries and bible studies and mentoring...there is still a huge need for one on on personal time with my Creator. I have been feeling a huge burden to reconfigure my prayer life...and then i was fully awakened this sunday at church. It was so clear to me how I can move forward and get out of my prayer "rut"...I am grateful for how He shows us just what we need. All I needed to do was lift my eyes up. His help is ALWAYS on the way.
Just when I think I am getting comfortable in our current circumstances...the Lord reminds me that complacency is NOT part of His plan for me. Standing back and watching things happen is NOT how the Lord designed me. He wants me to draw nearer to Him. EVERY second of EVERY day. I am ready to recommit my life to praying for the Lords will to be done in every aspect of my life. Jesus died on the cross and rose again. My husband can be healed. I will NOT grow apathetic and although I may grow weary at times I will not allow myself to become stagnant in the the spirit. He is alive in me and I better not take that for granted.
He makes Himself so present in my life...I am going to make myself just as present in His.
I will never have it all figured out. I will never know the full plan. I will never be able to express my gratitude for His hand in my life. I will try and I will fail. I will need to "recommit" 100 more times in my life. I am elated that this fire is lit and I am anxious to see where God brings our family next.
It is NOT always easy...but it IS always good.

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